My reason to believe

In 4 days it'll have been 2 years since my motorcycle accident and I'm very proud of that, I'm proud of myself for having overcome such a hard thing in my life. I'll admit I thought the 7 years of abuse was bad and hardest thing I'd ever go through but the accident changed my life, it changed me affected me in ways I never imagined and I never thought I'd get through it. Never thought I'd live to see the day I'm 18 years old and an adult and ready for my life to finally begin. I'm so beyond thankful for all of the people that supported me in the hardest most difficult time of my whole life, who believed in me and helped me get through it. 2 years ago I was having fun living life with no care, no appreciation for the little things taking life for granted two years ago was fun but now life is even better I thank god for giving me a second chance at life, for opening my eyes to the great things in life, for showing me what I was doing wrong..showing me how much my family loved me, showing me how much I was taking for granted. I thank my beautiful mother for standing by my side every day I was in the hospital for believing it me, telling me it'll be okay, for never giving up on me, for loving me so much..I thank my Aunt and Uncle for sending me a card and a box of food and a book reminding me how loved I am by them and praying for a healthy recovery.  I have that card on my bedroom wall hanging up so I can see it everyday. I thank my church for coming to see me in the hospital and all the support and prayers I received from them and from people I didn't even know. You all mean so much to me. I remember Pastor Robert coming into the hospital room and praying over me and speaking to me, I don't recall what you said because I was so out of it but THANK YOU. Thank you Bill for coming to see me and always being there for me and giving me advice when I need it, for caring about me, I may not show it a lot but I truly appreciate all you've done for me and all you're still doing. For believing it me I'm so glad that I know you. I remember you coming to the rehab I was at after I got moved from the hospital and bringing me pizza ohhh it was so yummy and so thoughtful, thank you. I can't thank you all enough if it weren't for you all I wouldn't of made it through, I don't think I'd be standing here today writing this to you guys. You are all amazing, wonderful people and you have a special place in my heart forever. I still have a long hard journey ahead of me but I know that I have god, and my family, my church family, my wonderful friends supporting me each step of the way. I know I can go to you and you'll help me through whatever comes my way. You are my reason to believe, my hope and faith my reason to wake up each day and push through. I may be strong but it was all of you that made me as strong as I am today. <3
I love you all
Caity Joan Greika

18 Waiting no more!

I'm 18 everyone 18!!!!! you know..the day I've waited for, forever!?? yeah it's come and I'm so happy.
So lets see what did I do for my birthday? I partied hearty! I got my lip pierced and then Tuesday went to court house to figure out money situation augh so stressful but it's getting there! anywho. I hear people no names mention talk. About what I post on facebook etc..and I'd just like to say. Just because I post bad things sometimes and cuss etc, doesn't make me bad, I've grown up a certain way my attitude is Fuck the world, like it or not. Take me as I am or leave me where I stand, I don't care. Everyone who truly knows me, knows I am very kind hearted and loving despite my cussing. I just wanted to put that out there (:
So today I'm going to drop papers off at court house and pick up my new eye glasses super excited!!! Life is so beautiful, I'm so happy that I'm finally 18 no more bs, no more having to do what OTHERS want me to do I can decide for myself. Feels great, saying 18 though sounds oldd to me. 17 sounded young now I feel like an old person ahhhh!!! but it's okay good feeling I suppose
anyways write later loves
SMILE!!
love caityyy

Which path to take

My birthday's in 6 days, I'm turning 18..the day I've waited for my whole life. I can just tell that everything is falling into place. I have one massive choice to make though and I can't seem to decide what is the right thing to do. Either move and put myself in a situation where I could either be kicked out, or get stuck. Or stay here as planned go to school, get my job, help my mom out as much as possible get my car and start working on getting my own place. Which sounds like a good plan to me, but I hate Vegas with a passion and I miss my Sister and my hometown. But I really think that staying in Vegas is the best for me, I know that I can make a life here, and I don't have to move so I'm leaning towards staying and just going to Visit my Sister during the summer.

Any who, more laterrrr
Keep a smile on your pretty faces my dears <3

Love Caity

Smile it's the one thing no one can take from you

I've come to learn to smile through my tears, my pain, and all the hard times because even when the sun sets the stars come out and show a light, leading me home. There's no point in dwelling on things you cannot change, the past is the past. Don't worry about it, you can't change it all you can do is keep walking ahead with a smile on you're face because that is the one thing no one can take from you. I've come to learn so much in my time of what people would call loneliness but I don't view it as that. I view it as a chance to find and learn about myself and I have. So yes some day's it hurts not having someone that I still wish so badly was beside me, but guess what it's okay! I'm a strong women, I know what I'm doing in my life and no one can stop me. I have goals and plans and dreams and I'm going after them. Being independent on myself and no one else. I don't need anyone else as much as I want someone I honestly don't need anyone. I'm great how I am, I'm doing wonderful. I never thought I would find so much peace and happiness after everything that has happen this year but I have and it's such a great feeling. I smile because I've found love in myself, and when hard times come I know I have friends who are there for me, and I know how to search for that silverlining and I know to remember it won't last forever. (:
Love Caity

Living through faith

I've lived a life with no meaning, with no motivation with no want to do anything. I have lived just waiting for things to come to me. I have lived with no care in life, and living with the motto of "just go where the wind blows me". But I've come to see that it will get me no where. If I don't reach for the things I want nothing will change and I'll just run in circles going nowhere. Lately I have been doing things differently, living differently. I'm not waiting, I have the motivation because I believe in myself and I live through faith knowing what ever comes my way good or bad I will be okay because I am strong. I know who I am, I know what I want, and I know I can reach my goals because I have faith in myself. I just want to be better than ever before I don't want to settle for anything less than great I refuse to. Call me stubborn but It's who I am. And even if I shall fall I'll get back up. No more "trying" to do better it's either do or don't. Because trying is having the intention to fail.

 I miss a lot of people and things in my life, but I know what I'm doing right now is best for me. I'm independent, I don't need others surrounding me, I don't need a boyfriend and I don't really want one. I just need my family and true friends and with that I'm more than content. If someone special comes my way then I'll go for it, but I'm not searching for love. I'm focusing on Cait and I'm smiling everyday because life  is beautiful, and things are looking up for me (:
So smile it's the one thing people can never take away from you <3

Love Caity

Lifeee.

I wonder why people take advantage of me then I realize it's because I'm too nice. But I can't change who I am..although I wish I could. I like my life, love it infact except I like someone even though I know it doesn't matter and that there's nothing between us except one thing. Which is okay. I don't mind it, I do sometimes but I like what I do have. I just would like to have an actual conversation about life and get to know the person more rather than just talk about one thing... I like getting to know people and getting into their minds and seeing their opinions on things. Blehhh.

I'm so lucky to have a family who loves me and stands by me. I may not always see it but I know they do. I love my mother to death through everything she has stood by me and tried her best to understand and support me. During my accident she was there by my side and held my hand and was one of the things that got me through it, without her I don't think I would be able to have done it. Without her I wouldn't be alive. I know I don't always say how much I appreciate you mom but I do..and I love you very much and although you don't always do things the right way, and you yell way to much sometimes I still love you. I could NEVER hate you even when I say I do. It's impossible you're my blood, we can laugh at everything and get along pretty well most days. I just wanted to let you know how much I love you and appreciate what you've done for me during my life. Thank you for never leaving my side. <3
Love Caity