18 Waiting no more!

I'm 18 everyone 18!!!!! you know..the day I've waited for, forever!?? yeah it's come and I'm so happy.
So lets see what did I do for my birthday? I partied hearty! I got my lip pierced and then Tuesday went to court house to figure out money situation augh so stressful but it's getting there! anywho. I hear people no names mention talk. About what I post on facebook etc..and I'd just like to say. Just because I post bad things sometimes and cuss etc, doesn't make me bad, I've grown up a certain way my attitude is Fuck the world, like it or not. Take me as I am or leave me where I stand, I don't care. Everyone who truly knows me, knows I am very kind hearted and loving despite my cussing. I just wanted to put that out there (:
So today I'm going to drop papers off at court house and pick up my new eye glasses super excited!!! Life is so beautiful, I'm so happy that I'm finally 18 no more bs, no more having to do what OTHERS want me to do I can decide for myself. Feels great, saying 18 though sounds oldd to me. 17 sounded young now I feel like an old person ahhhh!!! but it's okay good feeling I suppose
anyways write later loves
SMILE!!
love caityyy

Which path to take

My birthday's in 6 days, I'm turning 18..the day I've waited for my whole life. I can just tell that everything is falling into place. I have one massive choice to make though and I can't seem to decide what is the right thing to do. Either move and put myself in a situation where I could either be kicked out, or get stuck. Or stay here as planned go to school, get my job, help my mom out as much as possible get my car and start working on getting my own place. Which sounds like a good plan to me, but I hate Vegas with a passion and I miss my Sister and my hometown. But I really think that staying in Vegas is the best for me, I know that I can make a life here, and I don't have to move so I'm leaning towards staying and just going to Visit my Sister during the summer.

Any who, more laterrrr
Keep a smile on your pretty faces my dears <3

Love Caity

Smile it's the one thing no one can take from you

I've come to learn to smile through my tears, my pain, and all the hard times because even when the sun sets the stars come out and show a light, leading me home. There's no point in dwelling on things you cannot change, the past is the past. Don't worry about it, you can't change it all you can do is keep walking ahead with a smile on you're face because that is the one thing no one can take from you. I've come to learn so much in my time of what people would call loneliness but I don't view it as that. I view it as a chance to find and learn about myself and I have. So yes some day's it hurts not having someone that I still wish so badly was beside me, but guess what it's okay! I'm a strong women, I know what I'm doing in my life and no one can stop me. I have goals and plans and dreams and I'm going after them. Being independent on myself and no one else. I don't need anyone else as much as I want someone I honestly don't need anyone. I'm great how I am, I'm doing wonderful. I never thought I would find so much peace and happiness after everything that has happen this year but I have and it's such a great feeling. I smile because I've found love in myself, and when hard times come I know I have friends who are there for me, and I know how to search for that silverlining and I know to remember it won't last forever. (:
Love Caity

Living through faith

I've lived a life with no meaning, with no motivation with no want to do anything. I have lived just waiting for things to come to me. I have lived with no care in life, and living with the motto of "just go where the wind blows me". But I've come to see that it will get me no where. If I don't reach for the things I want nothing will change and I'll just run in circles going nowhere. Lately I have been doing things differently, living differently. I'm not waiting, I have the motivation because I believe in myself and I live through faith knowing what ever comes my way good or bad I will be okay because I am strong. I know who I am, I know what I want, and I know I can reach my goals because I have faith in myself. I just want to be better than ever before I don't want to settle for anything less than great I refuse to. Call me stubborn but It's who I am. And even if I shall fall I'll get back up. No more "trying" to do better it's either do or don't. Because trying is having the intention to fail.

 I miss a lot of people and things in my life, but I know what I'm doing right now is best for me. I'm independent, I don't need others surrounding me, I don't need a boyfriend and I don't really want one. I just need my family and true friends and with that I'm more than content. If someone special comes my way then I'll go for it, but I'm not searching for love. I'm focusing on Cait and I'm smiling everyday because life  is beautiful, and things are looking up for me (:
So smile it's the one thing people can never take away from you <3

Love Caity

Lifeee.

I wonder why people take advantage of me then I realize it's because I'm too nice. But I can't change who I am..although I wish I could. I like my life, love it infact except I like someone even though I know it doesn't matter and that there's nothing between us except one thing. Which is okay. I don't mind it, I do sometimes but I like what I do have. I just would like to have an actual conversation about life and get to know the person more rather than just talk about one thing... I like getting to know people and getting into their minds and seeing their opinions on things. Blehhh.

I'm so lucky to have a family who loves me and stands by me. I may not always see it but I know they do. I love my mother to death through everything she has stood by me and tried her best to understand and support me. During my accident she was there by my side and held my hand and was one of the things that got me through it, without her I don't think I would be able to have done it. Without her I wouldn't be alive. I know I don't always say how much I appreciate you mom but I do..and I love you very much and although you don't always do things the right way, and you yell way to much sometimes I still love you. I could NEVER hate you even when I say I do. It's impossible you're my blood, we can laugh at everything and get along pretty well most days. I just wanted to let you know how much I love you and appreciate what you've done for me during my life. Thank you for never leaving my side. <3
Love Caity

Life can be very hard, and confusing sometimes. You don't always know which path to take, and sometimes you take the wrong path and end up right back where you started at before. Which is OKAY because in your time of travel you learned things, learned not to do what you did before, learned not to run back into circles again. I've done this before, gone down a path, and ended up where I started at before. But I've learned to learn from it and instead of taking the same path that got me nowhere, to find a new one and go down it. Head towards the light, let god be the the leader of your life, give him your faith, your hand and just follow him. When one door closes another opens, and if not find a window and go through it (:

Life isn't as hard as it seems to be, there are people who are going to hurt you, learn to forgive them for their mistakes and keep moving onward because when you hang onto the past you get nowhere. Never forget what they did but forgive. Also realize that people are capable of change if they REALLY want it. Kind of like me, no one believed I was capable of change but here I stand today a changed women, with a smile and looking at life differently. No one can take the smile I have away, except myself which I refuse to allow happen. I will smile through thick and thin and let everyone know that no matter what happens this smile of mine is shining. When you smile, you make others smile just remember that (:

Love Caity Joan<3

Smile and keep your head high sunshines.

I'm sitting in my bedroom, listening to Taylor Swift and felt the urge to write.
I'm not the greatest of people, I have the tendency to make people fall in love with me without doing anything but being myself and it kinda sucks. Because It's not my intention...it just happens. I honestly don't see what is so great about me, I'm not anyone special just another girl in this big old world trying to make a difference one day at a time. I'm not quite sure why everyone thinks I'm so great. anyways onto another topic.
I have this goal, this plan, that I'm trying so hard to make possible. But a lot of people think I won't make it in life now don't get me wrong I don't really care what people think but it'd be really nice if I had some support and someone who believed in me. I have changed a lot throughout the past few months, I want to be productive, I want to make people proud but seems no matter what I don't. I still keep a smile on my face though because I'm the type of person who just say yeah yeah, watch me do it. Watch me prove you wrong. And I will, I have the power to do so, my head is on straight for once and I am happy with my life. And I know that when I put my mind into something and really want it, I can achieve it. And that is what I want, what I'm doing. I just wish that I had the support..but oh well, I'll just show them, and prove to myself most of all that I CAN and will do what I say. (:

My names Caity Joan, I’m 17 years old I turn 18 in 21 days (: I’m super excited for this day I’ve been waiting a life time for it although it is stressing me out a lot I’m focusing on the good and not trying to worry about the stress it is bringing me. I have been through a lot in my short years of life, from abuse for seven years, to a 2 motorcycle accidents the second being the worst and most major one. It has almost been exactly two years and it feels like it was just yesterday. But I have grown stronger from it, and although I live on constant physical pain I still wake up and smile and move forward in life looking forward for what is next to come bad or good. Because if it’s bad I search for that silver lining and for the reason to smile, and I know in my heart and mind that it is happening for a reason, although the reason may be unknown at the time I will soon realize what the reason is. As I have in everything else that has happen in life. I’ve learned patience, and to be thankful for life and the little things that come along with it. I am like a cute cuddly teddy bear, kind heart, gentle and sweet, I always see the best in people and never hate anyone or judge them. But if you attack me you will soon see the mean side of me. I love animals, and music, my family and friends. Their all I have in life and honestly all I need as well as myself. I have learned a lot in the last 3 months and I love it. I am in love with my life. I’ve found joy and inner peace, and grown stronger than ever before. As I say, may knock me down but never will you knock me out. I always come back swinging harder, faster, better stronger. My feet are glued to the ground and I’m not budging. I don’t change for anyone, did that, didn’t go so well. I’ve found myself again finally and I’m reaching for my dreams in life instead of waiting for them to come to me like I did before.
Anyways i’ll write more later tired of typing, put a smile on that beautiful face and keep your head held high <3
Love Caity Joan