Confused.

Howdy again,
So...I figured I'd sit down and write whatever is on my mind so if I'm all over place thats because my mind is.
So many things are turning around in my life has been up down up down...things always seem to go great than just horrible...and I'm truly just scared. I feel so strongly towards this guy, and I really don't know without a doubt the feelings are mutual I want them to be...he's amazing beyond words, but my past is affecting me from truly accepting that I have someone as great as him. So I don't know what to do.I don't want to allow my mind to drive me insane and push him away. I need to figure out how to accept that I do deserve someone great like him. But after my last relationship it's difficult.  I can see myself falling for this guy and that alone is scary after what I went through in my last relationship. So what should I do?
Work, well it sucks and I wanna quit so badly but I can't, this town sucks and I just wanna get the FUCK out. I feel stuck and that is one thing I don't like. I don't know what to do.
All I know is I want to see my babe...
welll...keep smilin y'all